I can't tell you how lonely i'm feeling today.Somehow i'm not able to overcome my loneliness, which i'm easily able to on most such occasions. I don't want to set 'happy friendship day' as my status message because i really don't have any friends. I'm over my teenage. What's wrong with me? Soon i'll be 22 and i'm still behaving like a damaged lonely kid.But i'm really lonely today. Nobody can cure my loneliness not even google. I care for no one so nobody cares for me. Is the Second law of newton valid in friendship too. Certainly it is. If i'll set my status message as 'i don't have any friends' on friendship day. How immature will it sound? It will sound like a loser, won't it? what i want? Why the hell i'm writing all this.
Where is this voice coming from? Somebody was saying- "You just don't want to overcome your loneliness "
Me : Who is this? Just go away. I want to stay lonely.
Loneliness : I came to be your friend.
Me: Go away. I don't need any friends. Everyone leaves me by the end. Nobody stays with me when i need them. You too will go one day. I don't need any more friends now.
Loneliness : I promise you dear. I'll never ever leave you. I'll Stay with you forever.
Me : Really. You are lying,aren't you? I guess you are alone now. So you need my friendship. You need me, right. I don't need anyone.
Loneliness : I'm never alone.I have many friends like you.
Me : Great, go to them. Why you came to me then?
Loneliness : Because i'm already friend with you. I just came to wish you on friendship day.
Me : Ahh great. Now will you please leave me alone. And btw happy friendship day to you too my beloved friend loneliness.
Loneliness : So, What's up in life dear?
Me : Didn't you hear what i just said. Leave me alone.
Loneliness : What's wrong with you. If i'll assure you that i'll never leave you. Will you be my friend?
Me : (sobs) I know one day you'll leave me too.I know. (pause) I know.
Loneliness : Don't worry dear. I'll never leave you.Never ever.
Me : Promise me?
Loneliness : I promise you whatever happens we'll be together.
Me : (smiling) So new friend what's new in your life?
Loneliness : Nothing new dear. Same old loneliness. What about you?
Me : I'm very happy. I just got a new friend. So wanna celebrate this friendship?
Loneliness : Yeah Sure i would love to. But i have to go now.
Me: (with mad anger) We just met. You can't leave me.What about all those promises you just made.
Loneliness : I'll have to leave. I can stay only with lonely people with no friends. But you just got a friend.So, i'll have to leave you.
Me : What are you talking about?? Yeah, very well. You can leave me just like others.
Loneliness : I can't stay with those who do friendship with me. Because they are no longer lonely. I only stay with completely lonely, solitary, desolate, alone, secluded, forlorn.....(continues)
I heard a knock on the door. It's my left side neighbor beating my door. I was in no mood to talk to her. I requested her to go away as i'm doing something important.But she had never listened to anyone and will never listen.
She shouted at the same voice as mine mimicking my harsh accent - "Open the door or i'll break it.I need something urgent".
Me : I know you don't need anything now. You already had what you wanted. So, please leave me alooo.....
The knocking continues & meanwhile i was thinking about my new friend loneliness. Why did it leave me too, just like others.
Suddenly i realized if i won't open my door now, i'll have lose my golden privacy for at least 2-3 days.So,I opened the door and closed the lid of my laptop.
She asked with her mischievous grin - "What are you so upset about?"
Me : Nothing.Please lemme complete my blog.Then i'll come to your room.
My left side neighbor : No no..tell me now or i won't go.
Me: I have to complete before 1 45 and go for lunch or i'll miss it.And i don't want to go without completing it.
My left side neighbor : Good. I don't care if you'll miss your food. Just tell me first what are you so sad about.
Me: I'm not sad. I just want to be alone for now. Kindly leave me for the time being.
My left side neighbor :No No.Tell me first.(And she's still smiling. She can't control her smile in situations like these, no matter, even if she's serious from inside. And this makes me even more crazy.)
Then came my right side neighbor searching for feviquick.
My right side neighbor : Do you have feviquick?
Me :I have col.
My right side neighbor : Col??
Me : Fevicol
We both laughed and she went out of my room with the fevicol box.Meanwhile my arguement with my left side neighbor is still going on.After her constant asking i agreed to show her my blog. I don't want to see her reactions while reading my blog. So i went to mess. When i came she was facebooking. She said i have written a really sweet blog.
haha. This is what she is, sweet. She finds everything sweet and cute. She wrote a really funny ending to my blog and i laughed my stomach out while she was writing it. She told me to publish it too.
Me: No stupid, I can't publish it.
She: Why not?
We again fought over this and finally i'm sitting here writing an end to this blog.
After all this fighting i felt, i no longer miss my new friend loneliness. There are people around me who really care for me. But i always go on searching for loneliness.
I'm no longer feeling lonely. Adios my friend loneliness.
Don't want to see you soon.And i realized i'm not lonely....To all my friends who never let me do friendship with loneliness and fighting with them always end with a hug, I wish them all "
HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY"
P.S. The author of this blog is all fine & sane person. She has many friends and she's lucky to have them all. So don't lecture on how to be happy or stay happy.She knows all that and she's happy with her life.
She writes to calm down her feelings when something strikes or she observes something or to pass time saying them as her own realizations. Because sometimes you don't need to really experience something to realize it.
